Sunday, June 29, 2008

Like a sound you hear, that lingers in your ear...

...but you can't forget from sundown to sunset
It's all in the air, you hear it everywhere
No matter what you do, it's gonna grab hold on you

California Soul

Well, week one of my California Adventure seems to be shaping up to be the rare kind of sequel that is even better than the original, and here is the hotly anticipated blog update. I have a lot I'd like to write about, but I'll probably get tired or bored before I can get to everything. The reason I haven't written in a while is I guess because I've been doing a bunch of stuff, and since I'm living with a bunch of guys, there are usually fun people to hang out with. I just haven't really felt like writing I guess.

I'll start there, with my living situation. Sure eight people will be living here soon, but its not actually as bad as I thought it could be. The apartment's pretty big, and the common areas are really nice and big. We have two full leather couches and a coffee table down in the living room, and a nice tall 6-seat breakfast table in the kitchen. In the bedrooms, there's not a whole lot of storage space in our bedrooms though. It hasn't been too bad for me, but this new guy, Phil, who's a graduate set design student at UCLA just moved his stuff in today and there is no room for a lot of it. He's going to have to put it in storage, I think. In my bedroom there are two bunk beds. It's like being in Daniels again or at camp, both of which bring back fun memories.

As for the guys themselves, they are pretty amazing. They instantly made me feel so welcome and loved in the apartment. It's crazy. I've been feeling challenged by this, knowing that if I had someone new moving into my house, there's a chance I'd probably be pretty selfish and unwelcoming. I'm trying to find the motivation to be as instantly helpful and welcoming to the other new interns at crew who haven't been there before. It's not easy, but I will be working on it. Anyway, so my roommates are great, and have taught me a lot already. I'm definitely feeling extremely lucky and blessed by this living situation, and I'm really excited to be able to spend the summer with them and get to know them better.

Going into work on Monday was absolutely great. I was so happy to see so many people that I know and love. It's crazy how great everybody there is. I know Dave will probably read this post and make fun of me for it, but I don't care. The people at Crew seem to make it a very special place. I'm feeling very lucky to be able to spend my summer with all of them, too. It's amazing to already know all of them. Just being able to walk to just about anyone's desk and strike up conversation is just really cool. They're all extremely friendly and welcoming....totally not how I expected Californians to be.

So let's see, what fun stuff went down this week? Well, Tuesday night I met up with some Mosaic folks and went to this place called Da Poetry Lounge. It's apparently like the hottest spoken word venue on the West Coast and it seriously was cool. There were so many people in this small theater that we sat on the stage. Some people were definitely a lot better than others, but the people that were good were really good. The founders of the Lounge were probably the best. There were three of those guys there. One of them, Brother Poetri, was the best, and he's been in movies and tv shows and stuff, including having a line in Blades of Glory. The fourth founder wasn't there, but it turns out he's Brother Dante, and he's actually the guy who played Rufio in Hook! We might have to go back to see if we might be able to see him. Anyway, it was really fun.

I tried to buy flip-flops in Beverly Hills on Thursday after work, but it turns out that stores close in Beverly Hills at like 7 every day. Is that how super classy places work? I just wanted to go to Gap, and even that closed at 7. Crazy. I don't know if that counts as "shopping in Beverly Hills."

Today I met Tegan at Santa Monica again. It was a lot of fun. I got off the bus here in Westwood and was walking to my apartment when I got to an entire street that was blocked off for the premiere of Hellboy II: The Golden Army. Apparently they have lots of premieres at the sweet single-screen theaters that are all like just 2 or 3 blocks from my house. I have some pictures, maybe I'll post them tomorrow.

Right now, I have to go to bed. Its 1:15 and I'm wiped out. I hope everybody's having a great weekend. I'm going to see Wall-E tomorrow night and I'm stoked. Take it easy!

much love,
Alex

Sunday, June 22, 2008

In for One tough summer...

After being worn out by a day of flying across the country, yesterday was a day to relax, and so relax I did.


I still had situating, unpacking and shopping to do yesterday, but Los Angeles is in the middle of a major heat wave so it was pretty much impossible to do anything but go to the beach. I hopped on the Metro Rapid bus and in 15 short minutes I met Tegan in Santa Monica. The sun was hot but the water was wonderfully cold. I don't know the last time I was actually swimming in the ocean, but it was amazing. I did my best to get rid of my farmer's tan, but there were only some minor color changes.  

I could potentially do this every weekend all summer?
  

I could get used to this.

My apartment is pretty sweet. The building is called "Club California" and is apparently the place everybody wants to live in Westwood. The whole place is really new and recently remodeled. There's a pool, a gym, and a half basketball court in the complex. Yesterday I almost got lost just trying to find my way outside.  

The funny thing about our unit is that no bedroom is completely private. There are two stories in our place, and there are just single big windows in every room that let light into both stories, so there is an opening by the wall in every bedroom between the two stories. In my bedroom, the master bedroom, it's especially a pain, since my room is right above the living room. It hasn't been a big deal so far though, and I can sleep through anything, so I'm sure I'll be okay.  

My bedroom has two bunks in it, so its kind of like being back in a dorm, but the room is pretty big. Right now it's just José and I living in the room, but I think more guys are moving in over the next few weeks. As long as I can get José to try to keep all his stuff organized, we'll be good.  
There's five of us living here so far, and my roommates are all very cool. They're all Campus Crusade guys, so I'm going to be sure to stir up some major Navs trouble. I'm totally looking forward to getting to know them and hanging out with them.

Last night, my roommate Nick and some of his friends let me in on their grilling dinner, which was awesome. I did some more shopping and unpacking, too, and I'm just about good to go.  

This afternoon I'm taking the bus downtown to go back to Mosaic, which I'm extremely excited about. It's one of the things I've missed most about California, and listening to podcasts just isn't as amazing as actually being a part of the place. I'm definitely hoping to do some hanging out with some of those people, too.  

I'm just stoked that I'll pretty much be hitting the ground running, while last quarter it took a month or so before I actually started getting involved. I'll definitely be looking into some kind of a small group, too.  

Anyway, that's enough for now, I'm going to go take a shower and get ready for the day. I hope everybody's summer is starting out great, and good luck to everybody with their first day of work tomorrow. I know I can't wait for mine!

much love
Alex 

Thursday, June 19, 2008

California Dreaming

Tomorrow morning, I'm flying thousands of miles across the country to Los Angeles. That is crazy. I've had a week of good and not so good here at home, but today and tonight I am just feeling extremely blessed. For the first time since being home, today I was finally able to focus and see cool things happening here and in my life. I was actually able to read, too, which I had thought maybe my body had forgotten how to do.

So I don't have a long laundry list of things I'm hoping to do in LA this time around. I did all of that stuff in the winter. Not to say that I won't do some cool things, and go back to sweet places like the Concert Hall and the Getty, but I have much different goals this time.

Here they are:

Exercising. I want to work to get in shape out there. I could care less about my weight or how much I can bench, I just want to feel healthy and feel good about myself. I know that if I commit to running and maybe working out a few times a week, I'll be feeling like a million bucks in no time. The better I feel physically, the better I'll feel emotionally and spiritually, too, so exercising is a must.

Another thing I definitely want to be doing is being intentional about building relationships, and working to make strong friendships with the people I meet. I sort of started to do that last time, but now I definitely want to do it. I met so many awesome people during the Winter, I want to take advantage of those relationships more this quarter. I figure my odds of making friends are pretty good considering my living situation.

Finally and most importantly, this quarter my main goal is just to completely open myself to what God wants to do with me. I want to find myself in situations that are uncomfortable and challenging. I know that this summer has the potential to be amazing, and I definitely don't want to miss out on it. I don't know what this is going to look like, maybe it will be connected to my friendship hopes, maybe not, we'll see. I just don't want to give myself any excuses. This is where I am supposed to be this summer. I'm confident it won't be long before I find out why.

Definitely the other goal I'm forgetting is my goal to not suck at staying in touch with all the people who have meant so much to me this quarter. That's important, and I'm going to do it. If I do happen to suck at it, do me a favor and call me!

The next time I write here I'll be three hours in the past. Awesome.

I love you all. You're amazing. Make this quarter count. Incredible things are going to go down for all of us.

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Summer's first lessons

I've only been away from Cincinnati for a few days, and already I'm learning some tough things.

Now I'm realizing one of the reasons I needed to have some time away from school this summer and it's not easy to swallow. For most of my life, but especially over the last two months, I've most clearly seen and experienced God in the people in my life. It has been through the support and love of the people I have been building relationships and living life with that God has taught me the most and most clearly shown me his love. This has been absolutely amazing and indescribably awesome, and will continue to happen out in California and forever, but at the same time, I know God is pushing and challenging me to seek him out in other places as well.

I've talked to a few people recently about making sure that we are "worshipping the root, not the fruit." I think at times over the past few months I have been guilty of worshipping the fruit, not giving credit where credit is due. It's really hard to not be around all of the people who have meant so much to me recently, and its even harder knowing I won't even see anyone for another three months, but I think that this needs to happen so that I can work to make sure I am seeking and experiencing God in other places. Definitely its fine and even healthy to have some way a person is being spiritually fed more than other ways, but I know I need to make sure my experiences and growth are not too dramatically out of balance.

Hopefully over the next few days I can focus and concentrate to work on all of this. So far, I haven't had very much luck. My undiagnosed case of relatively small but still definitely there-ADD has stopped me from being able to sit and focus on reading a book for any length of time. And I don't really know where the hours seem to disappear to here at home.

Will things get better or worse this weekend when I'm living in an apartment in LA with seven other guys?

It's not extremely fun to be learning tough lessons, but I do need to learn them, and it is exciting to already be feeling God working in me. Hopefully this is just the start of what the summer will bring.


Anyway, I'm off to Kennywood tomorrow with Ben and Patrick. It should be awesome. As long as I get a ride on the Phantom, I'll be set.

gooooodnight

Sunday, June 15, 2008

In Awe

This was the last week of the quarter, and I knew I wanted to hit it hard. I wanted to be able to spend time with as many people as possible, and just take advantage of how amazing my community in Cincinnati is before heading out West. Luckily, even with a little more work in the middle of the week than I was planning, I was able to spend time with many people that I love.

It is really incredible to be surrounded by so many amazing people. I just can't get over it. I was taught a lot this week and blessed in some huge ways. Everyone is awesome.

Today just about blew my mind. I have learned so much about how powerful it can be to actually be going through life with people, learning and growing alongside someone, and witnessing on a regular basis the crazy things God is capable of. I've made and solidified some amazing friendships this quarter, friendships that I know need to last a lifetime. Today was just an awesome example of that.

On my drive home here to Pittsburgh, I did something I don't think I've ever done before. I purposely turned off the car radio and just thought and listened for somewhere between a half hour and an hour. At first as I was in silence I was feeling very frustrated by things, but as my time continued, I just started to feel God reaching in and releasing me from a lot of the selfishness that was causing major struggles in me. It seemed to be replaced by the promise of amazing things in the future.

Driving home, I'm not sure Eastern Ohio ever looked so beautiful, I'm not sure what it was, but it was beautiful. My windows were down the whole time. Wind blew through the car. It was awesome.

I have five full days now to be refueling, gearing up, and getting ready to head out to California. This time at home is going to be great.

At the moment, I'm just feeling like I would have to be a major idiot to mess up all of the awesome plans God has for me and my life in both the near and distant future. Unfortunately, I definitely am an idiot, but with such great support around me, amazing things are going to go down. I am extremely excited for life.

Well, its getting late, and I'm having trouble forming coherent thoughts. I'll reread this post in the morning and see if I can't clean it up.

I hope everybody is doing great, preparing for whatever your next step may be.

Rock on.

love,
Alex

Monday, June 9, 2008

The Call

Well, I don't really know where to begin this post. There is so much stuff going through my head right now, many different thoughts, and I'm trying to work through all of it. We'll see.

This Saturday I'm headed back home, then I'm flying out to LA on the 20th. Man am I excited. I cannot wait to hit the ground running out there and see where I'm taken. Until then, I'm trying to take advantage of this last week here in the nati. Unfortunately I still have some work I'm having to do thats due tomorrow and thursday, but it's not too bad. I've had some solid hanging out time already, and will be continuing that all week for sure.

So one of the things thats been on my mind and heart has been my hope that in LA I'll be able to start up some really solid friendships besides those at work. Well, I've been praying about it, and a week or two ago I found out that I will be living with a bunch of UCLA students in Westwood. Actually I found out I will be living in a three bedroom apartment with seven or so other guys. Luckily, I really do want to foster relationships with as many people as I can, so I'm excited for it. Sure, it'll pretty much be like Daniels Hall: the sequel, but I can live without some space if I'm getting to know cool guys. Plus I hear UCLA's campus is beautiful, so I'm sure I'll be going there for some quiet time and relaxation once in a while.

I'm learning a lot about love and relationships lately. Today I had lunch with a friend of mine who explained to me how he sees love. His beliefs and the stuff going on in his life just about blew my mind. It was so counter to everything the world teaches us about love and dating and relationships. I'm in the process of developing a lot of my ideas about love and relationships and working out what I believe, and I have definitely been forced to redefine what it means to truly and completely love another person. It's been really crazy how much I've learned about relationships and connecting with and supporting another person from the non-romantic relationships I've been developing and growing. It is awesome.

I saw Prince Caspian on Saturday night, which I had pretty much figured I would have to just wait and see on dvd, but I was really glad I went, it was great. Once of my favorite lines in the movie came towards the end When Aslan is talking to everybody. I don't know the exact quote from the movie, but here's the line's equivalent right from the pen of C.S. Lewis:

"Welcome, Prince," said Aslan. "Do you feel yourself sufficient to take up the Kingship of Narnia?"
"I-I don't think I do, Sir," said Caspian. "I'm only a kid."
"Good," said Aslan. "If you had felt yourself sufficient, it would have been a proof that you were not."

Although in the movie Caspian isn't nearly as young as he is in the book, that line really stood out to me. It has a lot to say about humility and pride (the subject of the new series at crossroads, which I'm very bummed I'll be missing), and the fact that without our realizing it, God strengthens us and prepares us in ways we can't and probably are better off not knowing. We are capable of so little, if anything, on our own without God.

I have a lot that is going to be difficult and challenging coming at me now and even more in the coming weeks and months, and it is encouraging to know that I am not alone in any of this. I have been given what I need to not just get through stuff, but prosper and grow in it.

It seems to be that the idea of being satisfied and content is on the minds and heart of a lot of people lately, and I am definitely one of them. I thought I was feeling pretty content with God last week, but the weekend showed me that I am not as satisfied as I'd like to be. That being said, I have had huge moments of peace and contentment over the past week. I don't know where I'm going next, but I am working to be truly satisfied with God.

I'm all of a sudden really tired. I'm going to leave you all with the lyrics to the song at the end of Prince Caspian, called "The Call," by Regina Spektor. I bought the soundtrack last night and the song is just so beautiful musically and lyrically. I'm not totally sure how much of the song I am applying to where I'm at right now. Maybe a lot of it relates to me right now. Whatever the case, it's powerful stuff. Check it out.

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder
'Til it was a battle cry
I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never been this way before
All you can do is try to know who your friends are
As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye

You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye

Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
'Til they're before your eyes
You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye

So I guess I don't really have a lot figured out at the moment. That's okay, I know what's really important. The rest will come in time.

Hey, I love you all. Thanks for being there for me.


Alex

Saturday, June 7, 2008

Point it home

Do you know what it feels like to think you've got things pretty well together and all of a sudden find out you totally don't? Yeah...

Just two short weeks from now I will be back in Los Angeles. I can't believe the quarter flew by so quickly. I don't know what's going to happen in LA, but I know if I open myself up, incredible things will be taking place and I cannot wait.

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You've made it now

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

Finding my rock

Ohh, so much to write about, unfortunately I don't have time right now. I read the following this morning, and it seems to be meeting me where I am.

Psalm 71:

20 Though you have made me see troubles, many and bitter, you will restore my life again; from the depths of the earth you will again bring me up.

1-4 In you, O Lord, I have taken refuge, let me never be put to shame. Rescue me and deliver me in your righteousness; turn your ear to me and save me. Be my rock of refuge, to which I can always go; give the command to save me, for you are my rock and my fortress. Deliver me, O my God, from the hands of the wicked, from the grasp of evil and cruel men.

8 My mouth is filled with your praise, declaring your splendor all day long.

14 But as for me, I will always have hope; I will praise you more and more.


I'm not sure why I find myself needing the most healing in the morning. I think its probably because in the morning I haven't yet interacted with the people that I find healing and support in everyday. Luckily, before I am able to see those people, the Word heals.

I have a rock.

Now let's make it an amazing day. I've been given so much. There is a lot of praising to be done today.


...and the Penguins won!